Hello lovelies.
I know I haven't been around much, either at yours or mine & I do apologise.
I've been having a little struggle & I think I need your help.
It's a bit of a story so settle in, 'K?
Well, you know how we're a bit "Waldorfy" 'round here & that home schooling was definitely something we have found interesting. Then we saw the Waldorf school near our old place & fell in love. With the school... but not the fees. Expensive my friends.
So we decided to move to another area, with a great Kindy, Primary & High School. Japanese, strings, access to great libraries, museums & galleries. All at public school prices. Great, "the lot"!
We thought we would give Kindy a go & Poppy seemed to take to it like a duck to water. On her first day she walked in, kicked off her shoes, flung her bag & her hat on the floor & announced to the teachers, "Hi! I'm Poppy!" She then started painting & told me I could go home.
Perfect.
Now, 3 months in, she doesn't want to go anymore.
The first time she teared up & said she wanted me to stay. I explained that I had to go & look after Mei & do my jobs. Wet, wet eyes. So I brought her home.
All the way home I questioned myself on my decision. Was it the right one? My gut & heart said yes. My head? Well, I wasn't sure.
Once we were home, I questioned her as to why she didn't want to stay. Later that afternoon she decided to tell me. "I don't like the sticky tape. It's scarwee."
Hmmmmmm. She had cut her finger on the dispenser & she doesn't do hurting herself well.
So I explained to her that we would talk to her teacher & that she could always use glue instead.
She seemed to think this was an OK idea, so next session we went a little earlier & spoke to her teacher about it all. She assured Poppy that she could use the glue instead & that if she ever needed tape, a grown up would help her.
We went inside, put her bag away & she started playing. Mei & I left after saying goodbye, she was OK.
Then, today.
We went along as usual. Poppy asked me to stay. I said I would stay while she settled in.
She started painting quite happily so I gave her a kiss & said I would be back soon to pick her up.
Water works! Big time! With the holding on to my clothes, the begging, the whole 9 yards.
So the teacher & I explained again that I had to do my jobs & that I'd be back soon to pick her up after she'd had some fun.
I tried to leave again, she was screaming & the teacher was holding her back.
I couldn't leave her like that & I told the teacher that in our family we just don't do things this way.
She looked at me like I was making a huge mistake.
Now we are back at home & Pops seems perfectly happy.
So. What do I do?
Do I keep taking her back & bringing her home?
Do I leave with her screaming? (Dumb question, can't & won't do it!)
Do I keep her home & do the whole homeschooling thing?
AAARRRGGGUUUUHHHHH!
I feel like I'm ruining her.
I want her childhood to be happy & innocent.
My heart & gut is saying homeschool.
Have I made my decision or is it too early?
Ah, HELP!
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